Category Archives: From the Heart

If Together We Couldn’t Reside

Why is it so hard to let go?

Why does it hurt so?

I’m left speechless

Without care

Numb and apparently silent

While inside everything is noisy

And flying

Whereto did my joy take flight

Whereto did my emotions race

I stare with dull eyes

That before shone bright

I’ve been through seasons of rain

Much pain

But this is darkest night

A complete desolation

Nothing lingers but a tight aching chest

It was love that brought me here

It is love that shall bring me rest

Even in your silence

I feel you still care

Even when I don’t hear you

I see you there

I don’t know why the Universe brought our energies to collide

If together we couldnt reside

Copyright © 2015 Niazmina

You’re Still The One

I know I bring up things you’ve done wrong, but the truth is, it’s only to disturb you and eat your brain. You’re still one of the best things that ever happened to me. Even after all the tears, all the pain. You don’t need to ask questions you already know, I still feel the same. Just not in the same way. Like, now I never believe what you say. I just assume that you’re lying and don’t expect the truth. I’m grateful to the Universe for the experience of you. I am a different person because of you. I met you at a broken time and you became my growth. There can be no joy without pain, no sun without rain, no stars without darkness. I know this. If we look at how things happened,  we will understand it was all for our benefit; our betterment. I can look at our years with a smile and wave them a friendly goodbye, knowing that they don’t just die, but new years will come by. A new you, a new me. A new us, a new we. So we can stop stressing ourselves finally over how things went wrong, and continue on our way, steadfast and strong. Our story will live on.

It Was You I Had To Lose

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It used to be love
Respect
And companionship

Now it’s hate
Disrespect
And all that shit

What happened to love letters
All the emails
And all that sext

I miss how it used to be
Respect for you
Respect for me
Leaves me asking
What’s next?

Endless devotion
Hearts full of emotion

We said I love you
And really meant it
All our passion
We really dreamt it

Too much interference
No trust to intercept
Referee called Time Out
You wouldn’t acknowledge
Continued to shout

I saw the writing on the wall
Turned to walk
You decided to crawl
Beg and stalk

You refused to acknowledge the signs
Which to me were clear
We had to let go
We had to say goodbye
Tell our souls not to cry

Meeting you wasn’t by chance
Leaving was due to circumstance

There was no option for me
No matter how hard you beg and plea
Being a side is no life for me
This is something you chose not to see

I deserve more
Than the life of a whore
A life of little respect
I had to put my life in check

If its really love you feel for me
Why would you want that for me
Why would that be OK
For my happiness to rot away

I took myself for granted
Had to get my feet firmly planted
Had to say “No more of this I choose”
It was you I had to lose.

Copyright © 2015 Niazmina

Silent No More

Be silent the voice is telling me
Dont speak

No, I wont be silent
Thus I will speak

 

I speak for those who have been abused

I speak to those merely hearing the news

No sympathy for the accused

No longer can we ignore

Restitution I implore

Silent no more 

I know you well

Everything I know I will YELL

I will call upon the mountaintops

The far reaches of the earth

To bring you to your knees

Give you what you deserve

Do unto you as they please

To you it didn’t matter

Now your teeth will chatter

You have crossed my path

And I’ve done the math

Desecration is your master

Innocence your plunder

I shall put you asunder

Forbid you harm another

I will defame you

Call forth what you’ve done

And name you

You hide in secrecy

But I’ve seen what you’ve done, you see

I know you well

And I won’t keep quite

I will gather many and raise a riot

The whole universe cries against you

While the minds struggling to erase you

Reveal evidence of your destruction

You didn’t anticipate their resurrection

Those you touched have spoken

No longer remaining broken

Voices raised in unison

Won’t be silenced for anything

You’ve met your match

For we shall shame and plunder you

Repay you for the evil that you do

Revisit it all upon you

Be silent the voice is telling us
Dont speak

No, we won’t be silent
Thus we did speak

Copyright © 2014-2015 Niazmina

Forbidden Love: A Love Caught In Tradition

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Love caught in tradition…

Ease this burning incision
I would have muted this heart
Had I known it’s precision
Had I known our fate
Though that star caught fire
I would have swore it a liar
I would have silenced my wish

The arrow that shot me through
Came out of nowhere whilst before you
Had I known our future state
I would have blinded my stare
I would have blocked it for good
If I understood right there

Those who witness our turmoil marvel with little care
How these lovers bemoan
Unable to bear
I wake with you still on my breath
These endless thoughts of you will surely bring me to my death

Was it a past sin that brought Misery to grin
Was I in another life your secret wife
Do our souls acknowledge something
That to us remains hidden
This cruel punishment leaves us virtually bed ridden

Why did this heart lie
I trusted it was true
When I felt it’s first beat for you
Forbidden love thus hangs me alive
You alone are the hope in which I survive
Death can take me on the condition
It brings rescue from this torturous rendition

Love caught in tradition

© 2014-2015 Niazmina

To Look Back Or Not: The Ultimate Question

Does looking back make us stronger
Or make the pain last longer
I wish I had understood
The feelings you shared
All misunderstood

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I didn’t believe
I didn’t see
Everything you meant to me
My heart really concealed
My eyes didn’t see
Now in my awareness of things unseen
I am trapped in what could have been
Was it illusion
Was it just a dream

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Copyright © 2013-2015 Niazmina

Goodbye My Friend: Lover’s End

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You want me back?

You miss me so?

You came to hear the train whistle blow?

Well I’ve done gone

Jumped off the crazy train

Ain’t looking back and boarding again

Been down too many tracks

Down winter’s pass

Too narrow bridges for the rail to last

Ain’t looking back

I’ll say it again

Ain’t looking back

Bid you farewell my friend.

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